Mixed feelings

Pissed sad,
Mixed feeling,
Lost in time,
And in my mind,
Can't excape the thoughts I'm hearing,
Meanless words being repeated,
Don't understand what I'm feeling,
Crying dying,
Inside and out,
Wondering why,
And what caused this lie,
It went out of control,
Out of my hands,
One big mistake,
Too late to fix,
Can't rember when it was lost,
Will never be found,
Tired of trying,
This fight that I'm fighting,
Wrothless war,
It's at it again,
No longer caring,
Just sitting and waiting,
When will stop,
It's no longer worth it.