Loving You Is No Longer A Virtue

I couldn't breathe,
I closed my eyes,
I winced in pain,
You didn't even apologize.

Jealousy overcame me,
I felt so mad,
Anger was apparent,
I felt really bad.

This is not right,
It feels so wrong,
I thought you were nice,
But in my life you don't belong.

I couldn't say anything,
I didn't ask why,
I wouldn't see you,
You made me want to cry.

So I'll act like nothing happened,
Like those words were never said,
I never knew that such a thing,
Could leave me for dead.

I know I should forgive you,
I know it's wrong to hate,
But why did you have to do this?
When you try to save me it will be too late.

So don't come near my locker,
Don't talk to me in the halls,
I'm sorry it had to be this way,
That I protected my heart with such thick walls.

I love you,
I hate you,
I don't know what to think anymore.

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