Recognition/Answer Me This

How can everyone think this?
How can no one understand?
How can one simple page throw everything away and make her think like them?
How can my words deceive me?
How can they completely deny their upbringing of distrust?
How can the realization murder the awareness?
How can my progress cease to exist?
Well maybe I am going insane.
Maybe I do need help, but not from them.
Never from them.
Excruciating details promise despair and/or disaster.
The truth won't be so easily revealed to outsiders such as the "professionals".
Who out there can truly understand every aspect of this dissociated mind of mine?
I tell you no one.
Read this as you may, you do not understand.
Try as you will, you will fail.
I reach out to grasp only one, but her fate is not as I wished.
Loneliness does not scare me as it should.
NO, I do not need therapy.
Is it really such a world that denies difference?
Such blood thirsty grimaces claiming to be of assistance.
Four more years and I may start again with new outsiders.
Such freedom as this is not to be desired by one such as me.
I may here be captivated by my thoughts, but isn't it for the best?
Please take just one moment of recognition and appreciation for God actually wanting someone to be different.
You aren't helping by changing me.
Why would he create me to be distorted by your opinions?
Why?
Why does she read one line, not like it, and dwell on that one small piece of thought?
Just a bit of appreciation would be nice.