Time

Time, is something that no one has enough of.
You don’t have enough to read this;
I don’t have enough to write it.
I should be using my time more preciously,
I should be finishing my collage,
That I haven’t started.
I should be dying and bleaching my hair,
I should be doing a lot of things
That I put off this week.

Time, what we have is never enough.
17 years with a father,
who could be gone soon isn’t enough.
10 days of relaxation,
Could have been longer,
I stressed too many days away.
Days to heal
have gone to waste
as tears threaten to spill.

Time, that’s what I need.
I need time to heal,
time to prepare.
I need time to calm myself,
time with him,
and time to myself.
I need time before I’m ready,
to face the near future,
To face the far future.
I need time,
To face the bad things.

Time, is limited.
I should enjoy the time I have,
With the only father I’ll have.
I should take the time,
to cry every once in a while.
I should use my time wisely,
enjoy my life,
And make smart choices.
I should be friends with time,
only she can tell me,
how much longer I have.

Time, is irreversible.
I can’t turn it back,
but if I could...
I’d undo what I did,
I’d be daddy’s little girl again.
I’d have started my collage;
The day I finished my exams.
I’d have spent more time,
With my sister, with Jake.
I’d have sculptured me then,
instead of having to now.

Time, is the only thing I need, that I can’t have.
She judges how long,
I have in this house.
she says how long I’ll have,
My father for.
She tells me when I’ve come too late,
Or when I’ve watched her pass;
And didn’t do anything.
She is a cruel temptress,
She mocks me.
She runs too fast,
And drags on forever.
How I hate her,
Even if she is a precious thing.

I wish for time to be merciful,
Give me enough time with my father.
Help me grow strong.
Aid me in my wisdom, and wake me from dreams.