Cassie

For awhile this hurt to much for me to say
As I pushed rewind, fast forward, now play.
The pictures flashed before my eyes.
I crashed and burned beneath your lies.

Like cancer, it spread lethal and fast
Painful words and poison that lasts.
You sung with me both out loud.
Don’t let me get me… I screamed so loud.

I remember the sting of bittered tears,
The humiliation and anger no one hears.
You never understood the pain you caused,
As you quickly closed so many different doors.

I just wonder if this makes you happy now,
And if it does, could you please tell me how?
I wonder if you like this mess you left behind,
this place where happiness is rare to find.

It still hurts now, and will never stop.
Like a gash that only just heals on top.
The wound beneath, still deep and sore.
Is something that can be so easily tore.

The truth never was and never will be.
I know that now, and don’t so easily believe.
But what else can I say other than ‘I’m gonna’ be okay.’
Nothing, cause that’s what you want me to say.