There are some things people will never understand.
Like how much I love you. Really.
How much you mean to me. Really.
Why I try so hard, when you treat me this way. Really.
How much strength it takes to get up each day, face the stupid shit that I face, only to see you a couple times a day, and if I'm lucky, I get to talk to you...even though you're a jerk. Really.
How much you've changed me over the course of the past 5 months. Really.
Why I hold on. Really.
Why I love you. Really.
Actually, I don't even think you understand one bit, either. So, it's fair game.
My heart has never been this lost- this confused.
Maybe you were put in my life so I could just grow.
But even if I did, I don't want to give you up. Let you go. Let that be that. You were just a tool. A person who I ultimately used just so I could grow the fuck up and learn that I can do things if I put my mind to it.
Because that's not just what you are to me.
I love you.
I truly care about you, believe it or not. And I believe we have the potential to be what you believe we can't.
I'd give anything for you. Is that scary?
And I've got over 4 months to keep trying, to keep my faith and hope intact. Will I win? I don't know. That's ultimately up to you. But I'm not giving up on you. Not yet. Not now. Maybe not ever, but who knows?
I'm sorry for being so selfish and only thinking of myself.
But you have to see my part of it...
How much you mean to me. Really.
Why I try so hard, when you treat me this way. Really.
How much strength it takes to get up each day, face the stupid shit that I face, only to see you a couple times a day, and if I'm lucky, I get to talk to you...even though you're a jerk. Really.
How much you've changed me over the course of the past 5 months. Really.
Why I hold on. Really.
Why I love you. Really.
Actually, I don't even think you understand one bit, either. So, it's fair game.
My heart has never been this lost- this confused.
Maybe you were put in my life so I could just grow.
But even if I did, I don't want to give you up. Let you go. Let that be that. You were just a tool. A person who I ultimately used just so I could grow the fuck up and learn that I can do things if I put my mind to it.
Because that's not just what you are to me.
I love you.
I truly care about you, believe it or not. And I believe we have the potential to be what you believe we can't.
I'd give anything for you. Is that scary?
And I've got over 4 months to keep trying, to keep my faith and hope intact. Will I win? I don't know. That's ultimately up to you. But I'm not giving up on you. Not yet. Not now. Maybe not ever, but who knows?
I'm sorry for being so selfish and only thinking of myself.
But you have to see my part of it...