On the Edge of the Blade

one, two, three

this silent action has no hold on me

four, five, six

I feel the burn and try to resist

seven, eight, nine

okay enough already I need to stop

ten, eleven, twelve

have I gone too far yet?

thirteen, fourteen, fifteen

I have to stop now or someone will see

sixteen, seventeen, eighteen

who the hell cares what others think

nineteen, twenty. . .

I wish this would kill me

if not the other thing.