Realized Today

I personally don't like my poems too much (I think my stories are much better), but hey, I figured I'd might as well post them. I wrote this one today (6/45/07)

I realized something today
As I walked up your steps
Heart thumping in my chest
I’m not as over you as I say
My heart still flutters
When I see your face
My heart still breaks
When your face shutters
You’re closed off from me
You’re no longer mine
I want to weep
But never want you to see
The lies that fall so easily
That hurt me so bad
Are there to keep you happy
So you still smile at me teasingly
I don’t want you to know
That it hurts to see you happier
With her than me
And how I wish it wasn’t so
Yes, it was good to see you, too
Another lie, another false
Because the truth is
I still love you
And it hurts more than anything
To know you don’t love me
Your heart lies with another
And I was never more than a forgotten fling