Reaped and Raped

She holds back the tears
She can't bring herself to cry
She glares up at
The darkening sky

She lets the dry sobs
Move through her being
Hysteria bubbling inside
She's screaming

Mortified at herself
Her situation, her past
The one she loved
Love that didn't last

A laugh escapes now
As she realizes how blind
She really was
She didn't have to look to find

The closure for which she asked
The peace for which she begged
The death for which she pleaded
Then end for which was plagued

I wipe a tear
That has now escaped
This hurting soul
Reaped and Raped

I return my gaze
To the book in my hand
When will even I
Completely understand?