Not laughing Any Longer.

Laugher chiming through air mass,
I've waiting so very long,
And now that life has come to pass,
I feel lonely that it is gone.
Yet something still brings a smile to my face,
Exitment is choking me with its lace,
Its thread of curiosity and glee,
Has not really set me free,
But making me ponder, for a while,
At the edge of my seat like a child,
Suddenly laughter stops,
All noise drops.
Why do I laugh over such foolish choices?
Inside my head i hear these voices,
The ones that say i shouldnt have done it,
you have lost your smarts not won wit!
So now I am not laughing anymore,
guilt is searching for my core.
Now I feel myself under my chair,
Its crushing me,
Now im running out of air,
My last laugher was set free.