Doll in the Likeness

my mommy made a doll

i wanted her to have beautiful brown hair
to the middle of her back
with blonde highlights
visible in the sunlight
that would never snarl
and never get dirty

i wanted her to have striking crystallized eyes
blue, hazel, green, or even brown
that screamed for attention
with long black eyelashes
capped with perfect shaped eyebrows

i wanted her to have a cute little nose
not too big
not too small
i wanted her to have cute pierced ears
not too big
not too small

i wanted her to have full womanly shaped lips
that were just the right pinkish red
with perfectly straight
and perfectly white teeth

the skin on her face would never have red
splotches or pimples corrupting it
and definitely no lip hair.

she'd also have a body
that would never bring shame
she'd never shudder at the thought
of wearing a swimming suit
she'd never hide her arms
because of embarrassing dry red skin

her feet, not too big
her nails, not too short
her legs, never hairy
her butt, just the right size.

this is what i wanted.
this isn't what i got.

because my mommy made the doll.
with my daddy and God.