Thoughts of Her

Those thoughts will not leave my mind.
Those feelings, I thought they were gone.
I’ve tried to hate her for so long.
I think of the things she did to me,
The things she put me through
I can feel angry,
Sad,
Frustrated,
Confused,
But I can’t hate her.
I still try to make excuses for what she did.
Lying to myself,
Refusing to see the truth.
All I wish
Is that I would be able to forget her
To be able to move on with my life,
To be able to meet new people,
To not be scared that someday,
Somebody else will break my heart.
Yes babe, you broke it.
I put on a face and hide it when I see you,
But inside I’m sobbing.
Can anyone truly help me get over you?
My friends help me more then they realize.
They have brought my self-confidence up
From where you brought it down;
Tearing me down all the time.
How could I not see?
Was I blinded by the person
Who I thought loved me
As much as I did them?
I think so.
Yeah, that must be it.
The thing I think about the most is…
Do you think of me?