All Red and All White

take my eyes and
see the world.

where do i fit?

to some i'm a goody goody
and to some im a bad girl

i've smoked pot, had sex
swore and told lies.

i go to church though
every week.

friends see me in
different colors

some see red and others
white.

but never grey and
never the same color.

never be enough.
always too much.

redemption.

one side finds it lame.
the other unreachable.

come home late
smelling of a bar.
looks of judgment

sinner.

leave the bar early
got church in the a.m.
looks of judgment

innocence.

how can you be both
the angel and
the devil

my halo hangs over
one horn that protrudes
from my forehead.

where does yours hang?

i'm a missing puzzle piece.

take my eyes
and see the world.