tears

as i shed a tear,
you'll notice ts not clear,
but red,

from my wrist it falls,
i wont tell you it all,
just what you should know,

no matter what i try
not a single tear i cry
so i used a blade
and a tear i made

it may not be conventional
t may not be normal
but hell, it worked,
or did it?
the blood drips down.
i begin to frown.
did it really??

i ask myself as i see what a mess i've made,
of my arms,
of my thighs,
of my stomach,

scars will never heal,
souveniers forever,
of a time to forget
but forget??
never, never, never