mom.

There's a smile on my face,
sadness in my heart.
Behind this facade,
it's ripping me apart.

I want to scream it from the rooftops,
shout it in the streets.
Somebody help,
it's slowly killing me.

I don't want to make you sad,
can't bear to make you cry.
So I'm shutting it all down,
storing it inside.

There's only one way out,
nothing left to do.
My only hope,
is that I don't kill you too.

My heart is ripped,
my soul is torn.
Lately all I've felt,
is an enormous scorn.

You see me laughing,
but it shouldn't be so easy to miss.
You don't even realize,
you've sunk in denial.

You should have known,
with so many hints,
all the pieces together,
it all fits.

Your bewildered,
bitter,
sad,
mad.

You wish you paid attention,
you with that you had seen.
Past the pretty picture,
into the darker side of me.

But your stronger than me,
you can make it through.
Now there is only one thing left,
to say to you.

I'm sorry,
mom.