I'd Rather Go Unseen

I look at you today
As if you're different from before
My soul smiles and my knees may shake
And my heart rate quickly sores
But you, my love, will never see me
In that sort of light
And I shant tell you anything
Unless im far from your sight
When you are there youre all i see
[When you speak youre all i hear
And when youre down and look so sad
I wish to hold you near
My dearest love i do so wish
You could see me as i see you
But I shant tell you anything
As long as im still in view
I love you but im to shy to say
But my love for yous profound
I long to tell you every day
But i never make a sound
I wish you knew just how i felt
From you id get a call
But i just cannot tell you
If im close to you at all
You are so close, so very close
And yet so far away
Today, yes, now ill tell you!
No...maybe another day
I wish that you could see
All the shit you make me go threw
But for you my darling anything
I'd do anything for you.
Yes I wish you saw the words i said
And heard the words I've typed
See what you just made me do?
If you have-am I in sight?
Maybe I am maybe Im' not
I may have changed my mind
It's not important if I am or not
What matters is the time
You have this amazing hynosis
Oh, if only you could see
How much you mean to others-
Just how much you mean to me
And if you're hearing these words now
Or reading what I've typed
Let me ask you just once more
Honey, am I in you glourious sight?


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This is an older poem, from like May 2005. I know, the basic mood's over used and junk. But, just...I dont know.