Nothingness

There are times I fell like no one loves me,
that I'm not alive.
I fell empty and gone, like I have nothing to
live for but death itself.
If only my life didnt suck so much, if only I
had a reason to live, if only I had some one
to love me.
But life isn't so nice.
You don't always get what you want.
Why dose life have to so cruel to me?
At night, I lay in my bed with tears
running down my face.
I stare at the roof, asking myself
"Whats the point to keep on living?"
But I'm still here.
I find it hard to believe that the life
that hates me so much is still here
for me.
I could never wish to die even thou I
hate living in this cruel dark world.
I deserve love.
Ther are times that no one seems
to love me, to care about me, or to worry
about me.
That puts me in a world of pain, depression,
darkness, and...
NOTHINGNESS!