We Should

i wear baggy clothes
to hide the fat

i watch romantic films
to feel that love

i have casual flings
to run from serious

i have boyfriends
that i know i won't fall in love with.

i don't answer calls from good friends
to hide the facts.

i let my mind make my decisions
to keep my heart at bay

i push away the good
because i'm comfortable with the bad

the ordinary is my life
but i should be going for extraordinary.

i should let myself show the real me
i should let myself relate to romantic
i should let myself flee from casual
i should let myself find the real thing
i should let myself freely talk to my friends
i should let myself follow my heart
i should let myself feel the good
i should let myself fall in love.

i should let myself be illogical
because I deserve it...

i should let myself deserve it.

i should let myself just go with it.

I really should.