Months
Month one
It was July
Camp was supposed to make me forget
It only made the memories clearer
I was confused, stunned, and bitter
It seemed that the world turned against us
Month two
August
School started again
They tried to keep me busy, keep you off my mind
But every problem came back to you
I was blissfully ignorant
Month three
August turned to September
And brought with it the cold
I felt the memories again, like you were still alive
And I was in such anguish
All I wanted was to see your face again
Month four
September became October
And I couldn't get through the past
I remembered your smile and laugh
They had helped me get through the days before
But who would help me now?
Month five
November became the heir of October
Bringing with it the first snow of the year
I understood the fatal flaw in you
But I didn't want to care
I was bitter to everyone who used to care
Month six
December-month of Christ
But what kind of caring God would do that?
Why would he give you to me
Only to take you away?
Christmas was the worst day since your death
Month seven
Happy New Year--January is here!
All I could think of was your face,
The way you had given life your all
I remembered your charisma and passion
New Year wasn't so great after all
Month eight
February, month of the lovers
Cupid's arrow never hurt so bad
I saw all the couples in the hall
And felt so utterly alone
I remember how you'd made me feel wanted
Month nine
April, your big month
You lived for the big even in week one every year
And made it so special before you died
I turned 16, no longer with a hero
I missed you more than ever
Month eleven
May
It's hard to believe you've been gone for so long
Seems like just yesterday you were here with us
Even seeing the day marked on the calendar
Brings a fresh stream of tears to my eyes
It was July
Camp was supposed to make me forget
It only made the memories clearer
I was confused, stunned, and bitter
It seemed that the world turned against us
Month two
August
School started again
They tried to keep me busy, keep you off my mind
But every problem came back to you
I was blissfully ignorant
Month three
August turned to September
And brought with it the cold
I felt the memories again, like you were still alive
And I was in such anguish
All I wanted was to see your face again
Month four
September became October
And I couldn't get through the past
I remembered your smile and laugh
They had helped me get through the days before
But who would help me now?
Month five
November became the heir of October
Bringing with it the first snow of the year
I understood the fatal flaw in you
But I didn't want to care
I was bitter to everyone who used to care
Month six
December-month of Christ
But what kind of caring God would do that?
Why would he give you to me
Only to take you away?
Christmas was the worst day since your death
Month seven
Happy New Year--January is here!
All I could think of was your face,
The way you had given life your all
I remembered your charisma and passion
New Year wasn't so great after all
Month eight
February, month of the lovers
Cupid's arrow never hurt so bad
I saw all the couples in the hall
And felt so utterly alone
I remember how you'd made me feel wanted
Month nine
April, your big month
You lived for the big even in week one every year
And made it so special before you died
I turned 16, no longer with a hero
I missed you more than ever
Month eleven
May
It's hard to believe you've been gone for so long
Seems like just yesterday you were here with us
Even seeing the day marked on the calendar
Brings a fresh stream of tears to my eyes