My pain never has gone away..

Why..?
Why not..?
Why won't this aching pain go away..?

Days..
Weeks..
Months..
Years..?

Everything has gone by..
Things I have surpassed..
Yet..
Why haven't I died..?

Those that I cared about..
Sinned..
Died..
Committed the unthinkable..

I have lost old friends..
But..
Gained new..

I still can't get over my old friends..
They leave..
But never come back..

When I'm sad I hurt myself..
When I'm lonely, I go insane..
When I have nothing to do, I just died on the inside..

Why does this pain continue to cause havoc on me..?
I don't want this feeling to go on anymore..
I don't want to go back to the looney house..

No one is there in my mind..
To keep me entertained..
I'm too bored..
Too much in pain..

Why go on..?
There's nothing to live for..?
I can't take this much more..

I could slit my neck..
But I'd still live..
I could get runned over..
But I'd be in a coma..

This pain runs in my body..
In my mind..
In my outraging soul..

I'd rather die..
Than drown in my pain..

Again..
Why go on..?

I'm trapped in hours of despair..
The darkness has took me to a new world..
A world that agony is great and pain is power..

Why live on..?
Why is this pain still here?

Why won't it go away..?
I'm just ready to die in this acheful pain..

My pain is too great to control..
Too great for me to get ahold of..

This void will stay great..
And I shall move on..
With the pain taking over..

I will live on..
With the agony of death..

I won't last at that momment..