Lost and Alone

Do you remember
The day that you died
How it left me broken
And dead inside
I watched as you crawled
Into the grave you'd dug
And slipped through my fingers
Despite undying love
Do you look at me and see
My twisted reflection
Or is the image real
My personal deception

I've overcome my fears
Of life without you
Your abandonment
Has made me see the truth
I wasn't good enough
To compete with the pills
You can't hurt me now
So do what you will
I'm far beyond reason
And painfully numb
Tell me it's over
And I'm not acting dumb

Lies upon lies
Built up on your tongue
Before taking you down
In a spiral of drugs
No goodbye was spoken
You just disappeared
Thank you for adding
Abandonment to my fears
Pain is a demon
That's strangling me
As I cry out for you
I wish you could see

As much as you hurt me
As much as I've lost
You've given me almost
As much as you cost
As I sit here in tears
With pictures of you
I know in my soul
I can't forgive you
So bring on the pain
That the memories bring
You've made me so numb
That I won't feel a thing