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Hey,
I’m stealing your meds
Have you noticed?
A few less than last time?
A few more hours left to search?
Or maybe I took them all
And I’m sleeping them off
Wake me up and ask

Search me inside out
You won’t find a thing
Why is my heart beating so fast?
Because I know you can’t catch me
You’re too blind
I’m too deaf
And I’ll be sleeping alone again
Crying once more in front of everyone

This is my sanctuary
My canyon escape from the plains winds
Where it’s just cold enough to blister
The river rapids are silted just enough
To hold me here forever
Don’t send anyone after me
I just want you

In the grips of your pain,
I’m overdosing
So it won’t hurt anymore
Because I finally realized
This flatline isn’t big enough for the two of us