You ruined everything

In your redemption i had fate
But it was all a big mistake
You didn't change
And you never will
Your level of honesty will stay the same,
touching the ground it will continue to remain
You are now full of shame
Each day representing the word pain
Because with all your lies,
you lost the one you loved
And she went on towards the arms of another man
Someone who would always be there,
with the ability to understand
You always thought she'd be waiting for you
But you were wrong
She left realizing it had been too long
Since she felt independent and strong
You thought she would return
But when you figured out it was for real,
you didnt know how to react
You were humiliated and stunned at the fact
That she had the courage to leave you
With the decision of never coming back
You ruined everything
It was your own fault
You lost the ball
And now you're sad
For you wont be able to play around with it at all
Now you're miserably at home
Thinking of the things you did to end up alone
You had a chance to change
But you through it all to waste
Now its your turn to feel your own deadly medicine taste.