It's not okay.

hey mom
how's your life?
is it everything
you wanted it to be?
are you happy
in the world?
do you think
about your daughter?
do you miss your little girl?
do you wonder if I'm alright?
I'm not writing this to tell
you that I still hate you
I'm asking you how you feel
it's been a hard road
without you by my side
and I've spent years
learning how to survive
you scarred your youngest child
broke me from the inside
it's not ok but I'm alive
there's things I'll take
to my grave, the scars
run deep inside my body
and that's what you have
to live with as well as me
sometimes I forgive mom
keep that in your thoughts