All On My Own (Computer Lab)

I'm sitting in an almost empty computer lab,
and my heart it feels like it has a wound from a stab.
Pain tears through and I think it will win,
but I take it all on the chin.

People think I'm strong and brave,
people think I will not misbehave.
But some times they are wrong!
Some times I'm not so strong.

Some times I want to sit in the dark,
just to avoide the verbal barbs and snarks
And I sit here quietly typing away,
another way to pass the school day.

Headphones secured in ears,
blocking out the words and noises I don't want to hear.
The rooms filling up and insecurity files in,
I wonder which part of me will win?

But luckily he isn't here yet,
the person I could never regret.
The one who's opinion matters most;
the boy to whom I will not boast.

Painted nails chipped and ruined,
part of a bubbly girl who would never play truant.
Things have changed and so have I,
as my dull green eyes find the sky.
I think to my self why am I alone,
why am I all on my own?