I'm Not So Innocent

Just take me now,
lay me down.
lower my coffin into the ground.
water drops running off of pale skin.
now everybody know's that i was born a sin.

too thin, couldnt fit in.
long black hair,
a little too much eyeliner.
scars on my arms can tell a story.

dad? take care of mom for me.
i left a thrill ride of a life behind.
what did i have to live for?
remember. your no longer mine.

give me a reason to know.
i might not be a beating heart anymore.
but i still have a glow.
i said my goodbye's to everybody through a letter.

i always expected their lives to be better.
my mom through herself to the coffin as it went 6 feet under.
but it jurt burnt her to say goodbye.

flashbacks start by walking in the bathroom.
razor stuck in hand.
wearing the jacket and jeans of my favourite band.
she felt for a pulse and screamed.
she knew my soul had already washed away.
gotten to the hospital they couldn't do anything to save me.

so i wake up and it was all a dream, it bothered me to maybe think.
it might have a meaning?
obviously i still have a reason to be here. all the screams inside me hurting my head, bleeding to death. i can still here.

i guess ill start a new day, head off to school in my regular state of pain. nothings new nothings different. after all. im not so innocent.