Screaming Needle

Staring into a mirror,
Into a face that so closely resembles mine;
But I don't know this face at all.
So familiar, and yet such a stranger peering back at me.

Eyes with no life,
Like a lost soul.
I reach out to touch you,
But you move.

Breaking out in a run,
I follw you into the black nightmare.
The needle seeps into my skin,
And I can feel the only thing I love,
The very thing that destroys me,
Moving through my veins.

Leading me into a journey,
A destination unknown,
And still I look foward to it.
The poison so bitterly cold,
Yet the joy of it brings me warmth.

I have no worries in this own little world of mines.
I'm free to be who i wish,
And the happiness is overwhelming.
Time ticks by,
And before I know it-

Falling, Crashing, Burning.
The relief is gone,
And I'm left alone-
Lying here.

My insides twisted and turned.
My best friend, And my worst enemy gone.
I yearn,
I long to have the feeling of peace again.
Screaming, Pleading, Begging-
The needle calls to me.