It's Like a Drug Pulling Me Back

I'm sick of it
you tell me one thing
but you do another.

Is it the truth
or is it all just a
stupid fucking lie.

Can I trust you
or am I just making
a MISTAKE?

Something I do very well
Mistakes-Well known to me.
I'm just so lost right now.

I turn to you for help but
Your not even there
No one is there.

You say you love me
But with all the things
that you do and say
I really start to think
twice on that.

Love?

Do you really love me?
Do I really love you?
What is going on?

I'm losing everything I love
everything I care for
I'm just so damn confused.

I feel like I am being
pulled
back into that dark
hallway where it was only me.

Only Me?
Is that something I need right now
Just me and no one else-possibility?
I don't know who to trust- who to be friends with.
I'm starting to push more and more people away.

Help me?
No, no one can help me now.
I'm to far-to gone...
Its like a drug-the dark hall...
Pulling me back.

I'm losing it-everything.
Tears brink at my eyes
begging-pleading.
They want to come free.
No
I wont cry-I'm stronger then that.
I'm not going to break down
No
Not for you-not for anyone else.
What do you see when you look,
When you take a good look into
my Eyes?

I'm not that little girl that used to cry when
she got a scrap on her knee-I stand taller then that
I Keep walking like its not even there-I can do that with you to.
I can keep walking like your not even there-like no one is there.