I wish I could.

I wish I could say I'm not afraid
I wish I could say I'm not scared
I wish I could run into your arms
and know that I'm in a safe place
I wish....but I can't...I can't
Forgive...Forget...I wish I could

Another drink in your hand
what happens now?
I already know
do you?
Call me names
spit in my face
kick me when I'm already down
I should be used to it now..but I'm not
I've learned to never talk back
Learned to bite my tongue
I've learned to never let you see my tears
I've learned to be silent and endure the pain

I don't know who to blame anymore
you? Or the drink in your hand that made you this way?
But how do I blame the drink?
How can I blame the alcohol when you chose to drink it?
you choose to become the monster under the bed
and I'm the frightened child hiding from my nightmares

I wish I could say I'm not afraid
I wish I could say I'm not scared
I wish I could run to you daddy and know that I am safe
If time heals everything I guess I have to wait a while longer
but I can't....I can't