Dear God.

Dear god,
I never believed in you until now
Until a time where I’ve become broken
A time in which I need to be fixed
I pray to you in my time of need
Asking you to fix me
To make me feel better
To make the empty feeling stop
I pray to you every night that I can’t go to sleep
In those sleepless nights
I dream of the things that cause me pain
The ones I wish away
The ones I pray to you about, to make go away
So why won’t you fix me
Is there a lesson in all of this?
Why should I suffer to no end?
When I see no end near for me
Why should I lay awake feeling dead
When there is a whole world out there feeling so alive
Help me see the light that I must be missing
Help to save the life of this dead girl inside of me.
Amen.