I'm annoying, mean, and a total jerk... But they still love me!

I annoy people to no end,
I tend to be real mean,
For no apparent reason,
I'm a total jerk,
To everyone on any given day,
But what I may never understand is;
That they still love me..

I gripe and complain,
Until I'm sure they could go insane,
But still they tell me,
'I love you'.

I whine and cry,
About the stupidest of things,
But my friends,
They still love me!

I moan and groan,
Ungratful for all the things they've done for me,
And still I know,
They love me.

I hid myself away,
Letting my anger build inside,
Anger that is unwarented,
Anger I'll eventually unleash on some poor unsuspecting friend,
But even so,
They love me still.

I call them names,
I mess up,
I hurt them,
But they still love me!

I have done nothing,
In my whole life to deserve,
Friends like these,
But still they love me!

I grip and complain,
About how bad my life is,
I wonder if You're really there,
But still You love me!

I choose so many things over You,
Feeling alone,
As my bible sits,
Forsaken on my desk,
Dust covering the front,
I hear You calling,
But I run the other way,
And still You love me!

I claim I know You,
I call myself by Your name,
And yet I still find myself,
Sinning against You,
I know how much it must hurt You,
And I do it still,
Ignoring Your voice,
And I wonder how You can love me even still?

I come to You sobbing,
Look at the mess I've made,
As I look down in shame,
You lift my head,
And I hear Your voice say;
"I love you still".

Tears flow freely down my face,
I ask You my voice a small weak whispher,
"What have I done?"
"Can I fix this?"
I hear Your voice once again,
In the silence You say;
"No, you can't."
I fall in my grief,
Almost missing the last of what You say,
"But I can.. And I love you even now."

Joy abounds,
Yet again,
You've save me from myself,
And when I fall again,
I know You'll be there,
To pick me up and say;
"I love you even now.. Even now."
And still He loves me!