Breaking Down

air escapes my lungs
a voice that is not my own
screaming for the invisible
help me so i can
heal this insanity
rotting my core
how can it hurt and be delicious
how can it make me sick
make me still wish i had
more to hold in my hands
more to feel on my skin
fill my lungs and suffocate
asphyxiate me slowly
you'll be my last dying thought
and at least i know i wont be
alone or cold or painfully unhappy
I'll be everything above content
grinning from ear to ear
and bleeding just the same
as i laugh and wonder
what's happening to this
caged beast I'd kept so tight
so closed and yet it's
seeping out of my core
out of the cracks I'm uncovering
more and more drowning
blissful insanity scream
nothing and always more