Run Away Carriage

I've been pushed off course again.
My wheels off the track.
Looking and searching.
I'm never coming back.

Her eyes like a gun.
Locked and loaded,
Her stare like a shot to the head.
A blast to my heart
And I'm down on the floor.

My wheels off track.
Never coming back.

I'll gather my belongings.
Belonging to my heart.
Lie in this hospital bed and fake my part.
Concealing all hate in the shadowy mist.
Falling further down as I cling to my wrist.

My wheels off track.
I'll never be back.
Unwanted. Un-needed.
Lying here on my back.

She goes and she hides.
The fire has died.
But the pain is still flaring
Deep, deep inside.
One knock on the door.
There is life no more.
And I thought of the one that I loved;
On the floor.

My wheels off track.
I only came back,
To see your face smiling.
Your run away carriage.
Taking me to where I want to belong.
Somewhere, I might keep holding on.

At the moment all I can hear
Are the tears she now sheds,
Over yelling voices, I write.
And deep inside
All I can feel is the rejection
Of the one I once loved.
Being comforted, and held
By one who never was.

My wheels off track,
You convinced me to never come back,
And I know being here will
Hurt you.
So now when I leave,
What will you think?
Will you be sorry?

Pushed aside like an old, ancient doll.
Feeling the pressure,
Pressure of the unknown.
The tears won't come out.
But the pain gnawing away
At my heart and my soul.
Rejection is nothing new.
Told to move on,
Like a run away carriage.

My wheels off track.
I will never be back.