Nothing but the truth

Of course I'm crying
No, I'm not lieing
But sometimes I just feel like dying
I want the promise
I want the peace
I'm tired of this suffering

My sweet escape
My only place
Tempting me at a speeding pace
No, not yet
I'm stronger still
Bleeding still brings fearful chills

I'll stop being stupid
If you don't throw fits
Whenever I do stupid shit
The emotional tears
We're causeing now
May never ever be repaired

My broken heart
Because we're apart
I wish we could go to the start
Before the fears
Before the tears
Before my escape was piercing sheers

Yes I'm admitting
Yes I am cutting
Only because of all of our fighting
I've never written
Anthing so honest, so true
All of these issues have no blame on you

I don't want death
I hate this path
My heart on paper; naught but the truth
Please love me now
Love me forever
Cause deep deep down, I love you too

I'm afraid to tell you
I don't want to put you through
This pain of which you had no clue
Could exist in my life
Finding peace with a knife
Such a painful strife

I miss the light
I hate the fight
I feel like I'm walking in and endless night
This is my choice
To use my unused voice
To explain my heart with a silent noise

I'm still a christian
God is still my infatuation
I'm just having issues with my relation
I know he loves me
I know I love him
My life has just taken an unwilling spin

Joy I do not lack
That is nothing but fact
I'm just not fully back
I have since recovered
This numbing slumber
And now the word of God is my only hunger