I don't think I can take much more of this.

Can't you see what you've done?
What you've started?
Why can't I understand you?
What have I done to deserve this?

Every night I sit and stare out my window,
Sleepless nights turn into days and weeks,
Im trapped in a place where I'm standing still,
Never to move again.

Like a person turned to stone,
Cold and heartless,
I'm scared that I will never change,
Will I be like this forever?

My friends become distant,
I've lost so many because of you,
This is your entire fault,
I'm not the same; they say.

Maybe I should just run away,
This has become too much,
Totally incomprehensible,
I've become somebody else; they say.

Im changing so people won’t be worried,
To make me believe my own lies,
To make me look stronger,
Don’t listen to the way I talk.

Listen to my eyes; if only you could understand,
Orbs of such deadly secrets,
Sworn to keep this to myself,
Everyone fails at some point.

I just need someone to help pick me up,
Like a mother does for her child,
I watch as the world crashes around me,
I made this mess of my life; never to be sorted.

The amount of things I've been through,
The deadly things I've stopped myself from doing,
People keep such tragic things inside,
Oh how true that is.

I find peace within places others find war,
My room is my sanctuary,
My four walls of personality,
I’m still screaming inside my head.

If I don’t belong here,
Where shall I go?
Even if you reassure me,
You still hear me say; 'I want to end my life.'