I Want Never Gets

I want to sink to the bottom of the pool
where the water will swaddle me
I want to be bound by its liquid weight
I want to float endlessly.

I want fly away from my bedroom
I want to soar over a tranquil sea
I want to land on some unknown island
where I'm allowed to be unhappy

I want walk but feel no pain in my feet
I would continue trekking for days
I'd only stop to watch the sun rise and then set
and bask in it's warming rays

I want to be my mother's daughter
I want to hide in her womb again
I want to her to know who I am now
to tell me that it's them whose insane

I want to cry so no one would notice
I want to be alone so unashamedly
I want to scream but i fear that i won't stop
my voice carried away when finally freed

But I have known for a very long time now
and I remember what my mother said
that my wishes will not be fulfilled
she would say 'I want never gets'

I want to sink to the bottom of the pool
I want to float endlessly.