I'm not Second best.

I guess I made a mistake,
I knew it'd end this way.
These feelings flow out of me,
With every breath that I breathe.
So I'll write this for you,
And you do what you need to.
You know I'll always be here,
Even when you don't think,
I'll be near.
I know you won't accept my apology.
That's okay; it's just fine with me.
But, let's give up his hostility,
And everything that you hold against me.
And I hope you know,
There's two parts of me.
A part that's giving up;
A part that can't get enough.
I can't help the things you say,
And that they get a hold of me.
I can't help the actions you take,
That break what you can't see.
These things from our part,
These things to get past.
It's all stuck in our way,
Do you get what I'm trying to say?
I love you,
But I think we need a break.
I need some time to think.
Take a chance with her,
Let her know what she's done.
How she's thrown away,
These three months that I wish to save.
I can't remember what you were trying to say.
What is it that you were trying to say?
I'm sorry I pushed you away.
But, this is my real apology.
For flipping out on you,
For saying things that I didn't need to.
But here's one thing you should hear,
One thing to get stuck in your ear.
I'm not your second best,
I'm not like the rest.
So have fun with her.
I know you want to forget me,
So here. I'll help you.
This is goodbye.
My broken heart can't take much more.