Happy or sad

To be happy or sad is the choice I am faced with today
as my friend looks at me with tear filled eyes begging me to say
something that a friend really should
and most certainly normally I would
but today is different and I am confused
so although my mind want to say my heart just refused
so I, still trying to be a friend
try to change to subject and pretend
that everything’s fine to take her mind off things
but still my mind is continually contemplating
what should I do
should I try to be true?
for my friend has told me her love had left her
so the reason why I Utley falter
to answer her as a friend must
is because I love her so just
do I feel sad because she’s in pain
or do I fell happy of what I might gain
for now this girl who I adore
is now within my reach but I cant ignore
what has happened in the past
to prove that love with me does not last
as i was with this girl before
but it did not work for
I had fallen for another
and this friend who I held so dear
I almost lost and so I fear
that if this love is not real
I will lose more then just what I feel
so I chose to stay silent till the end
because to me id rather not risk love….for a friend