How?

How do i say goodbye
when no welcome had ever taken place
How do i smile
when a sad life, i was raised
How do i dry the tears
when they over flood the eyes
How do i know the truth
when i've been filled of lies
How do i love
when i've been kicked around
How do i stand up
when i've been beat to the ground
How do i listen
when i've begged to drown it out
How do i self pride
when only felt of self doubt
How do i focus
when been lost along the way
How do i sleep
when i don't want to be awake
How do i erase the lines
that visibly show my life
How do i keep living
when i've BEEN living this kinda life?