I Am (Insecure and Empty)

I am insecure and empty
I wonder how long my life will last
I hear a low buzzing in my head
I see a thousand types of pain inflicted on me
I want to feel again
I am insecure and empty

I pretend to be okay
I feel nothing
I touch nothing
I worry my life will end too soon because I cannot handle the pain any longer
I cry myself to sleep
I am insecure and empty

I understand that I can change
I say I am okay when I’m not
I dream of the things that I want in my life
I try to change, but fail
I hope the pain is taken away
I am insecure and empty