The Erratic Dreams of a Lover I Hate

Tempting in the time,
I follow my footsteps back to when you were mine.

A God-sent miracle you were,
And the miracle was that you found it so easy to throw me away.

I conform back to the cigarette-thoughts,
But a quitter never quits twice.

I lean on the shoulder of the one who hates you,
And the one who hurt me before.

You aren't fair,
I never deserved this,
Happily lives the girl who sleeps around.
You aren't fair,
I never deserved this,
Broken lives the girl who fell for your lies.

I never wanted this,
A broken background kiss.

And as you're laying there,
I hope he gives you exactly what you deserve.

"I don't enjoy the man," "This was never my plan!"
Your lies fall upon the deaf ears of a child and of a saint.

I watched him slowly creep up,
I never knew you to be such a fuck up.

The looks he and you were enough to make me shudder at night,
But then again I took you word without a second thought.

I'll never be your hero,
I'll live through your sluttish ways.

Respected although you have done nothing to gain respect,
You use insanity to get your own way.

I'll burn your sheets you fucking whore.
I'll set fire to the door.

I never wanted you to be the one anyways,
I wish I'd questioned my heart.

I wish I'd told him to not fucking start,
I wish you'd left me with dignity,
I hope you choke,
I hope he makes you bleed.

I hope he makes you dead in the head,
I hope you never sleep again.