Let Me?

I dream of a food with flavours
And no substance
To eat when I am bored

I dream of a filling food
Merely what I need to stay alive

I dream of a flat stomach
Maybe even of a concave stomach

I dream of a size four
Two sizes falling away

I dream of anorexic perfection
But it's just a dream
Something out of reach

I dream of love and beauty
Things that I can never have

When you awaken
The dream is lost forever
Without enough to grab onto
There is nothing to catch

I aim instead
Proud of my achievements
It'll take so much to make so little of me
Some pride in my appearance
And something to be proud of

A target, a goal
I'll sink my teeth into this
Instead

Let me dream?
Let me achieve what I desire?
Let me be who I want to be?