When will I fall? I couldn't walk in my own wake, from what I recall.

I was having a moment there
Just look at the troubles God sent here...
Hopelessly inclined to make some huge mistake
Fearfully declined an opportunity, yet nothing was at stake
Watched my life pass me by, I should be too young to say that right now
Watched my nightlights flicker and die, there's nothing here to guide me now...

Pressing me down until I can't breathe
The blessings are bound, when will I seethe
Or when will I break, when will I fall
I couldn't walk in my own wake, from what I recall
Because it was too much, my own standards so high
But they weren't too hard to touch, it was the fear that made me cry...

Falling in place, landing on myself
Bawling over my hopeless case, should I place my dreams on the shelf?
Labeled "Incomplete", or even better "Couldn't Compete"
Yes, I was beat. I couldn't compete with myself.
Everyone was in my dust from the time I stepped on the field
But now that I can't win what I must, should I accept what seems so sealed?

Sealed fate, don't irritate the god that he's become
It's not too late to change your gait, please just don't succumb
It's not my fault, it's his, everybody knew it
It is my fault, time to halt? Everyone knew I blew it
We'll call it a draw, a tie, a fail, a flaw
Not a law or a goodbye, but a detail nobody saw