A hurtful cry to a dead friend

why did you decide to leave me?
every time i look at that place i feel i'm dying
i think you'd come back but my mine would be lying
and when you left i couldn't think all i did was crying
and all my friends took pity on me but secretly they're sighing
i wanted to punch and i wanted to kick with thoughts all about fighting
and now all i do is think of you and do nothing except for all this writing