Addicted

I can love the boy that broke my heart
But I can’t love the girl that fixed it
I would rather be hurt than feel true joy,
Because that’s how my mind’s twisted
As he kisses me, he cuts me
Again and again
I want him to hurt me, ‘cause I’m addicted to his pain
I can love those that broke me
& hurt my heart so deeply
But I cant care for those that care
Because that’s how my mind functions
So I let them kick me& beat me
All over again
& I will make them hurt me
I’m addicted to this pain