Guilty Pleasures And An Uneasy Conscience

It's been days now
And when I close my eyes
it's your face in my mind
I know I'm not fine
Stop telling me lies

It's been weeks now
I'm not as stupid as you think
No matter that I can't breath
I've still got eyes; I can see
Can't you just leave me be?

A pleasure; and happiness
And a conscience to match
How can you smile
And how can you laugh
After it was all your fault?

It's been months now
And you're still in my head
No matter what they said
When I'm lieing in bed
It doesn't hide that you're dead

It's been years now
These nighttmares mocking me
Haunting every one of my dreams
It isn't you I want to see
Why can't you just leave?

I'm already alone
It's a fact I've come to know
You sticking around just makes it worse
It was your own fault
You said goodbye first.

I'm so sorry Jayyson..