Dare

Don't cry.
You can't cry.
You're not allowed.

You have to follow others,
no being an individual.
People seem to forget I have feelings.

But I do.
You may treat me like a dog,
like an abandoned mutt.
Just take it out on me.

It seems as if it doesn't hurt me.
But just because I don't show it,
Doesn't mean I'm not human.
I can cry.
I don't care what you say.

I don't care.
About anything.
I've become so lost in my imagination,
just to escape the screaming.
I let you treat me like this,
all of you.

I have no voice anymore.
I'm not sure I ever did.

Just take it out on me.
I will never...
Never let you see me cry.

I don't care what you think of me.
But I care what I think of myself.
If I don't have that,
I have nothing.

First to go was my sanity.
Second was my smile.
Third was my joy,
and forth was my hope.

Nothing will ever be better.
No matter what happens now.
I've given up on everything.
Everything but my music.
That will stay with me always.

Just take it out on me.
It's obvious I feel nothing.
I've put on such a good front.
Haven't I?

It's just that,
while I'm looking at you in the face...
I have to fight a battle inside myself.
One you will never know of.

No one
Will ever know.

I will put my trust in no one.
Not again.
I wont let them hurt me again.

No matter what front I have,
One girl can only take so much.
I've just about reached my limit.

I can only wish I will soon wake up from this dream.
That I can forget it all.
But the thing is,
It hurts.
Dreams can't hurt.

I know it's real.
And I hate every moment.
People are so stupid, they have fallen for my smile.
But look into my eyes--
Really search.

Then look at me, and say I'm happy.
I dare you.