The One Whom I Loved

I see her when I close my eyes
When I fall asleep at night
As if she wants me
To be her own
But then I realize it is me who is wanting
Of her long brown hair and bright blue eyes
When she says hello my heart jumps with joy
And then goodbye
a little I die
Finally, I ask the significant question
"Will you go out with me"
"Please say yes" my heart is saying
"But there is this guy" she says apologetically
I say "ok" even though I am not
I go home depressed
My mind racing in thought
The one whom I loved
Really is not