Phantom Dreams

sleep comes rare these days
but I abused my pills before
so I lye with eyes open
in the dark cavern of my room

the clock ticks
I look over and see the neon green flash 1:15 am
I turn on my side and hold to my pillow
the scent of you still lingers on it

I breath in
slow at first to get a brief memory of you
I remember when you lyed beside me
and held me so close

an innocent touch between our lips
and an exchange of glances at eachothers faces
I hope to open my eyes to see you there
when I do, nothing is seen

I close my eyes again and breath deeper
soft clouds float across my bed
as a sweet dream roles in
about the old days of me and you and this broken bed

laughing and tumbling across the sheets
the smell of sweet sweat on the pillow
thats where you asked me to be yours forever
will you keep your word?

I open my eyes again
3:48 am
why do I only dream of ghost
why can't I dream something better

I close my eyes
only to feel a tear roll down
why do i have to cry for you?
you don't care any longer

I need sleep
because facing you tomorrow will take all the energy I have
you still don't know how you affect me
I can see it in your stare

sleep comes forcefully now
my body can't handle the strain
I beat you sleep well my brat prince
sleep with dreams of her warm in your bed

while I dream of a boy who that doesn't care
a boy with my heart in a black cage
"sleep well my dark angel
may flights of devils take thee to thy rest"