Ending
I just always wanted
for life to just end.
I wanted
the bullshit to stop.
The memories
to go away.
All life ever did
was make things worse.
Never did good.
Never helped me through.
Things got
so hard at times.
Just wanted to die.
Suicide
was so tempting.
It would
end things.
It almost did.
But I got stopped.
I was then and there
only inches away from death.
Heaven.
Pure luxury.
But I couldn't do it.
I deserve
the hell in life.
What it brings me.
So when I do die...
I will be nothing but happy.
Happy in my own little
demon hell.
Thats all I've ever wanted,
But I think its gonna
take a damn long fucking time to get here...
My slow, little, painful death...
Its the way I'll die.
The way I deserve to.
And you will be damned well sure
I will welcome it
with every damn ounce of strength I have left.
Because any ending
is a lot better than living...
for life to just end.
I wanted
the bullshit to stop.
The memories
to go away.
All life ever did
was make things worse.
Never did good.
Never helped me through.
Things got
so hard at times.
Just wanted to die.
Suicide
was so tempting.
It would
end things.
It almost did.
But I got stopped.
I was then and there
only inches away from death.
Heaven.
Pure luxury.
But I couldn't do it.
I deserve
the hell in life.
What it brings me.
So when I do die...
I will be nothing but happy.
Happy in my own little
demon hell.
Thats all I've ever wanted,
But I think its gonna
take a damn long fucking time to get here...
My slow, little, painful death...
Its the way I'll die.
The way I deserve to.
And you will be damned well sure
I will welcome it
with every damn ounce of strength I have left.
Because any ending
is a lot better than living...